you have no idea just how much i miss you Bro. Can't get my head around the fact you are not here and i can't accept you are not here either. i keep reaching for the telephone to call you with all my news like i always did and then i catch myself and think that i must be going mad as i forget i can't talk to you directly anymore and then i get angry and low all over again. what keeps me going is that i know you would be angry with me for not being happy but it is so hard, Bro. i have lit another candle for you as i was chatting to you this morning. i know you are watching over all of us as i feel your presence all around us and i know you were with jamahl last sunday as we all felt you there. stay close and know you are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. xxxx