all i want to do is call you on the phone and hear your voice and that thought makes me very angry because i cant so i think i will try and leave some toughts here as just because i cannot get you on the phone that doesnt mean i can not talk to you, although i find it extremly hard and painful. i have not excepted you are gone forever and thats what keeps me going, i look at your photo from when you were on holiday in the lovely sunshine with your woolie hat on lol and i tell myself that is where you are-on holiday. i will never understand why you were taken so early it is just so wrong. i have never had a pain so bad that will never go away and im finding it hard to deal with, i try to think of all the good and happy memories but it still hurts so bad. i miss you so bad i dont know what to do. i am sending you love in my own ways every single day. i miss and love you so much always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx